Jul 24, 2014

present.

I've been a fail blogger this week! Actually I've really just failed at social media in general. I didn't take very many pictures for Instagram. I posted nothing (other then Instagram photos) to my Facebook wall or Twitter timeline. I started two different time sensitive blog posts (this weeks #mommyreality link up on mommy life hacks and this weeks finish this link up) but didn't finish either one.

 

I spent this week being present with my boys and social media suffered.

These three weeks since James arrived have just flown by and the days are running together. (The nights too - we're still trying to help baby James understand the difference between the two!) I barely remember the twins' newborn days (daze?) and I don't know if we will ever have another child so I want to treasure these moments. I want to soak up his newborn smell and his soft soft skin. I want to cherish the love the twins already have for "aa-aah" and the sweet things they do for him. I don't want to miss the moment Davy tried to shove his treasured dino wub in James' mouth to comfort him when he was crying. I don't want to forget Tripp sharing his sippy cup with aa-aah. Sadly, being present in the moment with my boys means I missed getting the perfect picture of these adorable moments. Heck, I missed getting any picture!

 

I did grab my phone in time to catch Davy offering his milk a few minutes later though!
 

I don't have all the answers. I don't know the best way to find balance. But I know I need it.

I don't know how to take care of the needs of three baby boys and find the me time to blog it out. I don't know how to nurse non-stop and still support all of my dear dear friends on Twitter. I don't know how to be present and interact with the toddlers and still find time to pull out the good camera and document it all. I struggle with this.

 

I spent this week being present with my boys and the blog suffered.

I write this blog for myself as a record of my memories and an outlet for my emotions. This is my "me time." I don't want blogging to fall away again like it did when the twins were itty bitty. I stopped bogging for so long that I lost the community I was in. I am starting to rebuild that and I don't want to lose the connections I am starting to form.

I added write three blog posts to my to do list for next week. I'm not going to attempt to get back to my daily posting, but it would like to post three a week. I'm going to try and utilize the blog section of my planner better and jot down ideas and things I would like to share with you all throughout the week.

I spent this week being present with my boys and Instagram suffered.

I love having photos of the boys. I love the low quality iPhone photos. I love the selfies with my babies. I love the pictures I snap with the good camera. I love them all!

 

Sweet moments that melt my nerd heart.
 

I don't want to miss making memories because I am too busy photographing to experience them. On the flip side, I don't want to forget these days because I don't have any pictures. I treasure the monthly photos I took of the twins and I want to do the same thing for James. I want to be able to look back and remember just how tiny my babies were. I want life to happen. But I want to remember it.

I can't put "take pictures" on the to do list. I can't put a number or a goal on this. I don't want to limit the photos I take, but I also don't want my boys to picture me with a phone in my hand at all times. I also want to make sure I use the good camera often enough to get better shots of their perfect smiles, Tripp's chipped tooth, tiny baby toes, and all the other things that make my babies my babies.

 

I spent this week being present with my boys and Facebook/Twitter suffered.

I found amazing community on social media at times I needed it most. I found an incredible support network of other women dealing with infertility. I found other mamas who were honest and open and real. I found other twin moms who have been where I am. I found a village.

I refuse to lose these women, so all I can do is try my best to steal moments here and there to check in. I know that for the immediate future I won't be as involved and supportive as I once was, but I can try my hardest to stay involved and connected so that when my life calms down a bit, I can support other women the way they have supported me.

 

But above all, I spent this week being present with my boys and nothing else matters.

 

My boys. Little for now.
 

My time with Tripp and Davy as toddlers is limited. James won't be a teeny tiny newborn for long. These weeks, days, moments are just flying by. If I'm not careful I will miss them. So, unplugging a bit and just being present is okay! Some days, being present is exactly what my family needs. It is exactly what I need. I'm going to have more days and even weeks where I fail at social media. But, I need to be present for my family or I'll miss something.

And as the song says, I don't want to miss a thing!

 

 

7 comments:

  1. I think every blogger has to find what works best for them. My blogging time is Sunday afternoons. I don't have kids but I still feel guilty about not spending that time with my husband. For me also, blogging is my time and a way to save our memories. I think it is fantastic you focused on being present. You will have many memories to cherish!

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    1. I think some time away and to yourself is important! No guilt for that!

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  2. Hi! We all need to unplug and be present. Thanks for the reminder :) Congrats on your baby boy! That's amazing that you have 3 under 18 months. Go mama! I have a 5 year old and 1 year b/g twins. I'm always telling myself to take more pictures of the kids. But trying to always be present as well. It's a balancing act, I tell you :)
    Katherine

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  3. Lexy- I am SO glad to meet you my new friend!! Oh, how I adore this post... because it's so true to life as a mom blogger!!! Something is always sacrificed when we choose the other. I love your beautiful insight and message here... and oh how hard it is to balance it all!!! I get this. I get you. SHARING!!! Because I think every mom gets this. Every mom gets YOU. :)

    Hang on to those moments with those precious kiddos. The blog will forever be there- to rebuild if necessary. You did the right thing.

    I'm your newest fan and follower!!! XOXO

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    1. Than,s so much for stopping by and for the words of encouragement!

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  4. Lexy - life and family always come first before blogging. You've got your priorities right!

    Also, blogging daily is not necessary. No one has time for that, or have time to read daily posts from one blog. So posting once or twice a week is totally A-ok!

    Enjoy those boys, time is such an asshole. :)

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    1. Time really does suck!! I appreciate the words of encouragement!

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