Dec 11, 2012

Week 29

Marination Time:
Baby Size:

The Bump tells us that Pip and Pop are as big as an acorn squash. It also gives an average weight range of 2.5-3.8lbs which is much higher than than the numbers used by my OB or any other fetal weight charts I can find. BabyCenter compares the boys weight to a butternut squash, with average weight of 2.5lbs. They also give an average length of 15 inches. These numbers are more in line with the information from my OB. His Boys Can Swim now says Ps are each as big as the front tire of a kids tricycle. We had a growth scan on Thursday at 28w0d and Pip and Pop are both doing great!
Baby Milestones:
Pip and Pop are starting to get cramped because they are growing so fast, but they still have a lot of growing to do. They are getting white fat deposits on their skin now, which give them more energy (the better for kicking me with!) and will help them temperature regulate after birth. They continue to grow stronger and chubbier this week. This week Pip and Pop each require a minimum of 250mg of calcium per day to help their growing bones.
Contractions. Dizziness (told at L&D I'm still anemic so I guess we know why this is back!). Tiny Bladder (Seriously. Every. Two. Hours.) Trouble bending over - as in it doesn't happen. Shortness of breath and easily winded. Bruised and tender uterus. Nausea (apparently a stomach bug not pregnancy related.)
How I'm Changing:
What I'm Eating:
Odwalla Chocolate Protein Monsters (they are finally back in stock at Target). Milk. Red meat.
I went on a bit of an emotional rant on Twitter on Sunday night. I was a hormonal mess and really mourning everything this experience hasn't been instead of celebrating the joy of two healthy boys.
The Emotional Rant:
(It has a few edits from the twitter original for formatting and correct grammar.)
Really emotional tonight. Lots of tears. Nothing about having a kid is going the way I wanted it to. Absolutely nothing.
I always dreamed we'd get married, buy a house, and fill it with babies. Infertility wasn't the plan.
I always thought we'd be able to smile at each other and remember the conception of our baby. Another man in the room during an IVF procedure wasn't the plan.
I always dreamed I'd get pregnant and have a beautiful glow and love every minute of it. First trimester bedrest wasn't the plan.
I always dreamed of decorating a nursery, the perfect space for my baby to grow up in. Constant exhaustion and an inability to accomplish anything wasn't the plan.
I always dreamed Casey and I would fall in love with a name and just know. Having lots of "likes" but no "loves" we agree on and so having to compromise my child's name wasn't the plan.
I always dreamed of the excitement and anticipation of welcoming my baby home. Spending my third trimester constantly on edge that everything and anything could be labor and it is too early wasn't the plan.
I know I should be so grateful that I am carrying two healthy baby boys. So many would be happy to be where I am. But tonight I am just really hurting for everything that wasn't.

I now have a bit more perspective than I did on Sunday (read: I'm not feeling quite as hormonal) but I still know that I am hurting and mourning what wasn't. I also know that none of these worries or changes came as a surprise to God. I didn't see any of this coming and none of it went the way I wanted it to in my head. But, God knew. He knows how it will all play out and the very moment each thing will happen. God has a plan for me, for Casey, for Pip and for Pop. We may not know His plan or understand His ways. But we can trust that He has a plan. God says: "I have a plan for you. It's gonna be wild! It's gonna be great! It's gonna be full of Me!"(From Come Away With Me by Jesus Culture)
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'” -- Jeremiah 29:11
Two hours at a time. Max.
I still really miss my feet. In related news, I still miss wearing socks.
Belly Button Watch:
Still an innie/flattie. The dreaded pop hasn't happened. Feeling smug and victorious!
What I'm most excited about:
Our new carpet is getting installed on Friday! This means I will get to start organizing the boys closet, laying out the room, and putting up art soon! I'm so excited to see it all come together (and even more excited to see the Ps in it!)
Pre-posting edit: Due to my trip to L&D, we are going to have to delay the carpet installation. To get carpet put in, everything must be off the floor and off the bottom hanging racks in our closets. Losing a day of work pretty much ensures I can't do it all in time.
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