Jun 4, 2012

Stimulation Day 10

Today was my last scan before IVF retrieval early Thursday morning!

They measured 15 follicles - 5 on the right and 10 on the left!! The RE says with confidence that any follicle over 15mm contains a mature egg - and I have 9 of those! I have four that are above 13mm and so may contain an egg (and could still grow a bit before Thursday). I am over the moon! We spent so much time worrying if this IVF cycle would ever happen (see previous posts for the crazy number of obstacles) and then worrying I wouldn't get the necessary six follicles to continue with retrieval. But everything has worked out! God is so good! He is sufficient and provides what I need. Overall, all looks good and I will trigger tonight!

At my women's bible study this morning we discussed God's sovereignty and His plan in everything. It was a really comforting discussion for me this week as I begin to fret about the next steps.

Ecclesiastes 7:13-14
Consider what God has done:
Who can straighten
what he has made crooked?
14 When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.

The "straight" times are the times of peace and joy. They are the times when it is easy to sing God's praises, "and everything fits together nicely." In the "crooked" times, everything still fits together according to God's plan even though we can't see where all the pieces go. I bring lots of "crooked" into my own life, but even the bad I heap on myself can is used by God for His glory and His plan.

Certainly this infertility journey, a "crooked" that comes from God and is part of His plan will be used for His glory. God is in control of all things, including my future family, and will do everything to His purpose and His plan. By His very nature God is love and so I know His plan for me will work for good and love: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28).

I know this because I know: This God -- His way is perfect (Psalms 18:30)

God's way is perfect. God's way is sovereign. Nothing I do, even the "crooked" I bring on myself can thwart His will.

God -
Bless my crooked life and decisions. Tonight I will take my trigger shot and prepare for retrieval on Thursday. Give me an awareness of your sovereignty and let me experience the peace that comes from knowing Your will will always be done. You are in control. And because I know You and love You and trust in You, I go forward into this process comforted by Your presence and majesty.
Amen

2 comments:

  1. Hi, just found Your blog looking for low AMH because I just got back some nasty results (in addition to male factor we have known about). It looks like your ovaries are responding really well! Good luck with retrieval!

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  2. Alexis, I have been so blessed to read about your faithfulness. Always look forward to your posts, and all the Helms girls will be praying for you tomorrow!!

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