I heard this question a few days ago, and have been pondering it ever since. I think I have an answer now.
This TTC Journey (that's Trying to Conceive for all you folks who have never dealt with fertility) has taught me a lot about faith. I know that it is going to kick my down to the ground and beat on me even more as we continue down this path to a wee-one, but for now I can find some comfort in my God.
I have gained faith in my God. Faith that there is something bigger than me out there and He loves me unconditionally. I have faith that he loves my tricky ovaries that don't seem to work. He knows every hair on my head (Luke 12:7) and every doubt and fear that sits on my heart.
Even when I doubt my body. I doubt my ability to ever give my husband a child or our parents a grandchild. I doubt my own strength to continue this journey, but God has faith in me.
I have been riding this faith/doubt roller coaster for two years. And I still don't when and where it ends. I don't know if it ends with pregnancy, ends with adoption, or ends with never being a parent. But I do have faith that God will keep me going.
I have faith in my marriage and my husband. I have faith in a positive outlook. I have faith in taking a pro-active approach and advocating for myself when things are difficult. I have faith in me. And most importantly, I have faith that God is taking this journey with me.
Isaiah 41:10 was the first bible verse I ever memorized as a child and it has always been a favorite:
So do not fear, for I am with you;Going to get a second opinion and meeting with Babydoc2 (sorry haven't come up with anything better yet) gave me my hope back. It gave me peace that someday a yes will come. Someday I will be a mom.
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.