In one of the boxes, I found a journal I bought my Senior year of high school for my English class. Mrs. Dickson required us to each show her one journal entry a week for 6 weeks. She hoped it would create a lifelong journaling habit - sadly it didn't - but it was nice to go back and see what I had written. She gave us the assignment the week Nana Miller (my Dads Mom) passed away. My first journal entry isn't very upbeat. I stopped writing the week both Nana and Poppop (my Mom's parents) were diagnosed with cancer and given 3-6 months. My last entry is also not so positive. (2002 and 2003 were rough years in my family. Nana Miller passed away in March 2002, Poppop July 28, 2002 and Nana Davies followed just 3 days later on July 31, 2002. My father followed less than a year later on July 7, 2003. It's no wonder my short attempt at journaling is so morbid!!)
The entry I'm going to share isn't so sad though. Mrs. Dickson must have given us writing prompts to use as ideas if there was a week we were stuck. My March 17 entry:
I guess I'll write Mrs. Dickson's prompt for this weeks English journal - ya know - the one I wasn't planning on doing, but it seems so appropriate: "what makes a good marriage prospect?" I know that I want someone intelligent, honest, compassionate, someone I can talk to, someone I can be quiet with and not have it be awkward, a protector, and a Christian. I am looking for someone with the same moral values as me, who is devoted to me. I hope my true love is a good kisser (it sounds petty but it is important to me!) I need someone who can make me laugh and who I can be goofy with. I would like a guy whose hugs can make me forget all of my problems and let me just live in the moment. I want him to be romantic, spontaneous, open, accepting, and a good listener. I hope he remembers the things I say. He needs to accept my friends and the things that are important to me. I would like a man who can listen to my problems without feeling the need to give me advice. I hope he is confident, good with children, patient, and has self-control. He must be willing to admit when he is wrong and not rub it in when he is right. I hope he has nice hands, a full laugh, and a great smile. He needs to be goal oriented and have an idea what he wants to do with his life. I hope he is able to talk about his feelings, respects me, accepts me for who I am, and loves my flaws and quirks. I want him to be forgiving and a guy who doesn't bring up old fights or event during a fight. I hope he is bilingual, open to other cultures, and adventurous. I want him to be good-natured. I need him to enjoy cuddling! Most importantly I am looking for someone who I always feel safe and secure with. Wow! What should have just been a short and quick English assignment turned in to a pretty long list.
I wonder if a guy who fits all of these really exists - hmm it would be nice.
I can honestly sit here today 6 years later and say that I have found a man who fits almost all of those characteristics. He isn't bilingual (unless World of Warcraft nerd speak counts!) but I'm okay with that. I am so fortunate to have found my Mr. Forever and can't wait for him to get home so I can show him my journal entry!