I want nothing more from life than to a good mother. If I can do that while being a professor - I'll be even happier. If I can't than motherhood is all that I need. Casey really wants kids too. We've talked a lot about when we will have kids and we both know that now isn't the right time. Casey is working incredibly long hours AND going to school. To have a child before he graduates wouldn't be fair to him. It would also be nice to have at least my qualifying exams done before I am trying to squeeze studying in during nap times.
All of the logical reasons tell us that waiting another two years makes sense. But that doesn't make the waiting any easier when I hear all of these happy moms-to-be.
The one thing that might make it easier:
all of the little ones already in my life. Casey and I have nine nieces and nephews who all live close by. Whenever I really need a baby I can borrow Maddie (1) or Ryan (2). When I want a little sass Courtney (6) and Landry (6) have plenty to offer! A bundle of sweetness you certainly turn to Cooper (4). If a tornado of energy is your thing than McKinley (4) or Aaron (8) is the best bet. For quiet mischief than Megan (4) is the answer. And when we want a reminder of the difficulties of parenting, a conversation with Abby (12) who just started dating does the trick.
We are so blessed to have such great family all near by - and when I start feeling sad that we don't have our own rugrats yet we can always babysit!