Dec 12, 2014

Give us TODAY

When Jesus taught us to pray he said "Give us TODAY our daily bread" (Matthew 6:11).


The longer I'm a Mom the more convinced I am that the word TODAY was very intentional.

For today, I don't have enough energy. For today, I don't have enough self-control. For today, I lack patience.  For today, I don't have kindness.  But you know who does?  God! 

On Saturday Davy's whole body was covered in hives and his face swelled up.  He took a bite of his brother's oatmeal, made with Nutramigen, a formula for babies who are allergic to cow's milk, and Davy reacted to it.  Even the small amount of milk protein in the few bites of oatmeal he stole was more milk protein than his body could handle.  That day, I lacked faith.

That night, the milk protein in the Nutramigen gave James a rash and a tummy ache.  He couldn't sleep. He projectile vomited more than once. It wasn't a restful night for mama. The next day, I lacked energy.

On Sunday afternoon, I woke up from a nap in so much pain that I fell after I got out of bed. I had to text Casey to come help me stand up while my back continued to spasm. I was in too much pain to do much of anything. That day, I lacked joy.

On Monday the doctor gave me a prescription to help with the pain. I took one of the pills before bed and it completely knocked me out.  I didn't wake up all night. I know James doesn't sleep through the night.  I know he must have woken up crying for me and I didn't hear him. I was too out of it and Casey was out of town. The guilt was overwhelming. That night, I lacked forgiveness.

On Tuesday, Casey called his trip short so he could come home and help me.  Instead of helping, he came home and almost immediately fell asleep. He woke up a few hours later with a fever. He had the flu.  A hurt back. Three kids under two. And now a sick husband.  Those next days, I lacked peace.

God knows that we as mamas don't have enough energy.  We lack patience.  We can only read the same book and sing the same song so many times. We worry about our kids. We struggle to find peace (and quiet). We as mamas just can't do it all.  But God CAN.  And so EVERY single day God gives us just enough.  He lends us His energy. He lends us His patience.  He grants us His gentleness. God knows where we are lacking.  And instead of judging us or condemning us, he gives us what we need.  All we have to do is ask.  God will give us TODAY our daily bread. 

As mamas, let us all pray for the ability to make it through TODAY.  I sometimes get so caught up worrying about tomorrow, that I forget about the importance of now.  And sometimes, I can't imagine what tomorrow will look like.  So ask God to give you enough for today, because when you are surrounded by toddler, the messes and the tantrums and the demands, you don't even know what you need tomorrow.

So today, God, give me my daily bread.  Give me patience.  Give me energy. Give me gentleness. Give me kindness. Give me self-control. Give me peace. Give me joy. Give me goodnesss.  Give me faith. Give me my daily bread. Give me enough for TODAY.